Yesterday!

I met him yesterday.
We didn't make any commitments but have met many times, excessed the border of so-called 'just-friends'.

but...
I decided to stop this relationship because I had been betrayed and hurt before I met him. It happend in the exactly same occasion.
So it must have been over yesterday afternoon.

However things were not just going so well.
After I got home I was obsessed with regret.
I didn't tell him anything of what I feel even though he was IN FRONT OF me!

then,
at night I called him.
told someone that I think I like you for the first time on my own.
I didn't want him to puzzled to hear that.
because I don't need anything from him anymore.
just want to tell him what I feel not to regret from now on.
If not, I will never be able to truly believe other guys.

I don't know he was surprised
but for sure he felt complicated.

felt free to confess that!
If we think we can't do something, we can't.
just believe it's possible. we can make it.

OMG Long Time No Be Here..

I'm now back here again..
to make me remind to think how to describe what I want to say in English.
Thinking in different languages is hardworking if these are not the people's mother tongue.
It's no doubt that words are coming through my brain much more naturally when people hear their native languages because they can understand the meaning of words instantly and automatically, without making any efforts to THINK about it.
That is why I was fascinated by movie translations though...

We can't even realize that living in Japan, speaking only in Japanese.

now I live in Japan but just don't want to forget how to do that.