Yesterday!

I met him yesterday.
We didn't make any commitments but have met many times, excessed the border of so-called 'just-friends'.

but...
I decided to stop this relationship because I had been betrayed and hurt before I met him. It happend in the exactly same occasion.
So it must have been over yesterday afternoon.

However things were not just going so well.
After I got home I was obsessed with regret.
I didn't tell him anything of what I feel even though he was IN FRONT OF me!

then,
at night I called him.
told someone that I think I like you for the first time on my own.
I didn't want him to puzzled to hear that.
because I don't need anything from him anymore.
just want to tell him what I feel not to regret from now on.
If not, I will never be able to truly believe other guys.

I don't know he was surprised
but for sure he felt complicated.

felt free to confess that!
If we think we can't do something, we can't.
just believe it's possible. we can make it.

OMG Long Time No Be Here..

I'm now back here again..
to make me remind to think how to describe what I want to say in English.
Thinking in different languages is hardworking if these are not the people's mother tongue.
It's no doubt that words are coming through my brain much more naturally when people hear their native languages because they can understand the meaning of words instantly and automatically, without making any efforts to THINK about it.
That is why I was fascinated by movie translations though...

We can't even realize that living in Japan, speaking only in Japanese.

now I live in Japan but just don't want to forget how to do that.

I'm in Toronto

I haven't written articles recently, but now something made me move my hands.

It is............that I'm finally get back to Toronto!!!!!!!!!!

I find this city my second hometown, even hope that I'll be able to be here in the near future as a part of citizens.

Los Angeles is also really attractive because there is my first abroad experience.

For almost all things, your 1st experience has the priority, I mean, kind of strong impression in your inner heart.

but to talk about LA, I'm really poor. I spent those times in the suburb of that.

I somewhat get to know the city well now with my 3rd-time visit.

anyway, I really want to live in North America. hopefully near future.

...I have to write about my days in Toronto.

On the 1st day here, I got up really early. First I went to downtown and have breakfast & take a rest at Starbucks near the Reference Library.

I expected here is freezingly cold with snow. However.....it was totally wrong.

I didn't even need to wear a scarf and gloves!

It's getting warm here though I could see snow remaining on the road.

oh, Beijing was the coldest in my life............

Then I visited my previous landlord's condo in the western area of Toronto.

I was relieved she's fine (though she has a digestic problem temporarily ). She even prepared lunch for me!!!

We talked a lot, played the piano, sang together, help find next person to live, study korean and...watched Korean dramas.

As I noticed it was already 7:30 pm.....

It means I spent nearly 7 hours from noon!

Tomorrow I'll meet up my friend studying in Toronto, looking forward to that!!!!

One of the best Love Song, ever

Many of my friends who celebrated my birthday 2 days ago, thank you all!!
This was the last birthday during my school life, and might be the same that I could have cakes with my whole family at home.
but I don't even know how my life is going on. I have a strong future aim though, I'm bouncing between my current Japanese life and the aim that I really want to achieve in other countries.

Last year one of my friend (she is now back in Toronto, maybe) said to me that she wanted to immigrate to Canada. What made her think so was that she had a lot of warm friends there. She said, "I want to do that cuz I'm sure I can meet and live them together. If I don't have anyone closer there, I'll never think so."

On my birthday a lot of friends sent me messages on facebook or texted me. I realized there are many precious friends of mine and I have to keep respecting them.

and then suddenly I wanted to listen my favorite love song "Too Much Of Everything" by Corneille. This is the song I met in Vancouver by chance. His voice is really sweet as if it fully permeates through my whole body and heals me.

I introduce the lyric here;

TOO MUCH OF EVERYTHING

※You're too much of everything　　　　　　　　 　　　　　　　　
And I'm just a man　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　
But you're so many other things　　　　　　　
That only I understand　　　　　　　　　　　　　
You're too much of everything　　　　　　　　
And I'm just a man　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　
But I love you like no other can　　　　　　　　
But I love you like no other can　　　　　　　　
If I could be perfect　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　
Only to match one half of you　　　　　　　　　
Then I would be perfect　　　　　　　　　　　　　
But with nothing else left to prove to you　　
How could I deserve you?　　　　　　　　　　　　

※Repeat

If I was nothing but beautiful　　　　　　　　　　　
Inside and out my past included　　　　　　　　　
Now, wouldn't that be wonderful?　　　　　　　　
But I wouldn't have cried and sweat to earn it
To deserve it　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　

※Repeat

They say a woman is closer to perfect than a man could ever be　
If there's any truth to that you were born way ahead of me　
Plus you grew to become more than a woman　 But this love is gonna make me　
Work myself up to you　　　　　　
To work myself up to the best of me　

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　

Я в Японий

I was back from 10-day super-eccentric trip from Russia! It was amazing, but I caught a cold & had a fever right after arriving at Kansai airport. guess I was tired very much.


My cold settled down now but I'm still coughing (plus stuffed-up).


Anyway, I'd like to repeat many times that "I wanna visit there again!!". It was no doubt that there were a great number of difficulties in communications during this trip (we could survive because we know Russian however inexpert it was, and we can read Russian letters best of all).



In Ukraine, many people gazed us while passing by. They can't help being curious about these Asian girls who came to their country for sightseeing. but on the other hand in Helsinki, we met a lot of Japanese tourists and almost all of them gazed us like those in Ukraine. (laughter) ////


ok, look at us if you want....



Thanks to this trip, I became interested in Russian learning again. and wanna go there! ya, but to live? ...If I live for a long time, I'll choose the States or Canada.


I've been thinking about my future life many times recently, it's partly because I'll be one of the Japanese society soon. I have a lot of thing I want to do, really. live in another countries, study in a college, study cooking, marriage, be a translater? I don't know.


I had better not think about it too much. because I know my life is naturally going on well even though I never live my life again.

right? I never expect that I'll go to Russia, study Russian, go to Canada and dream of future life in North America.


These all happened in this four years.

I'm sure I'll be able to meet many unexpected things in the near future.

Life is amazing.

Summer vacation

I had the final class today before an upcoming summer vacation!! but we watched a Russian short movie at a whole classtime wow! I had to remind Russian to travel around Russia........cuz I've heard people don't understand English (maybe at all). Now I'm checking a lot of places in Moscow & St.Peterburg to visit! oh, excited!!
My trip to Eastern Europe will be in September, I'll go to LA in October and might visit Egypt in winter(a friend of mine eagerly asked me to go)lol
need to gain money/////////////

I met a new teacher(老师) at today's Chinese lesson because my regular teacher is now in China for a business trip. We talked a lot in Chinese and I felt I could develop Chinese conversation skills by my continuous 1-year study.
I'll try to know Spanish in this summer! 加油==

YOU WILL ALWAYS BE THE KING OF POP

I got this yesterday! I haven't started looking at it yet, but I'll bring it with me on Sunday when I take a train.
I love his songs so much & play them every time I do my part-time job at the restaurant (I can freely use a MD player in the kitchen) My favorite is his ultimate album "Invincible" , especially 'Speechless' in it.

I also got a Yoga-related magazine to remind me how to breathe and move my body. I was doing Bikram yoga for a while in Canada, but I haven't done that after coming to Japan.
I actually joined in a yoga class for beginners here but it was not what I want to do. At the studio in Canada where I went to, when the class is over, instructors usually told us to lie on the floor and relax as long as we find it enough. In Japan, however, they told us to go out from the room soon after class, so that I couldn't relax at all. Next time I do yoga I want to do Bikram's again because I feel it familiar to me.
Unfortunately Bikram's studios are located only in Tokyo area. I want to try it if I'll work there from next year.